just want to be loved | damaged4ever's Blog

Hi i'm new. I have had terrible choice in boyfriends. I have been hit and cheated on until I met my current boyfriend. I thought he was the one. He was kind and gentle and seemed to love me. Until his best mate killed himself. First he was drinking every night until he passed out and then he slept with a friend. Something I never thought he would do just when I had finally learnt to trust someone again. But I love him so much I forgave him. It was fine for a while and now he is back to drinking again. And getting more and more frequent. I'm afraid he will cheat on me again. I started to self harm to cut out the pain of him not being here and wondering what he is doing. I just want to die.